Incapacitated is a word that is almost becoming cliché.

I have checked up the word and am sure that it is the only, most appropriate, no, most precise word to describe exactly how I am feeling right now.

To incapacitate: To deprive of capability; to render incapable.
Incapaciated: Exhausted. Impotent. Incompetent. Paralyzed. Unable to respond.

How else can you describe this?

Have you ever watched yourself like a stranger, unwittingly?

I can't function. I have felt this way before and this is a ridiculous time and place to feel it again. [But feelings are not rational.] I cannot type a single word without first backspacing it in my mind.

It is only six hundred words and I cannot do it.

Simply notice: shortness of breath, tightness in chest, lightheadedness, overly bright vision, crosswired braincells.

I cannot think.


Dear Lord, You know this is more than stress and the irrational, unworthy pressure to surpass myself. Something is at work here and it's gnawing, gnawing, gnawing away at me, wearing me down, tiring me out. GO AWAY, Evil-Doer! Flee! In the name of Jesus, you had better run! Dear, dear Lord, help me, please. I feel so weak and I cannot think. Something is taking over and I'm struggling. It's a trying struggle, Lord! Help me, dear Lord, I give this to You, help me to give this to You, Lord, I give this to you, Lord. Come, dear Lord, come! Take over, please...... Dear God please be merciful... I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Forgive me. Peace, dear Lord, I need Your peace. Come, dear Lord... Come. In Jesus' name I sinfully pray, amen.