When things seem most dire and hopeless, have faith; and He will deliver you.

It's true.

That said, there are still a lot of issues I'm struggling with. The literature modules I'm taking this semester are also bringing a lot of hidden issues to light. My faith has always been rather simple. There is a God. Period. This world IS governed by a Higher Being.

I've always been a kind of agnostic, as opposed to being an atheist.

Only recently have I 'stuck a label', or rather, 'put a name' to that God. I'm still finding my way. And this is important to me. I don't want to rush it.

Yet despite my crawling steps, He's been really good to me. And I'm not even saying that because I got all my modules and tutorials la, la, la smoothly--because I didn't, and it's been a really rocky ride. I'm saying that because, like a responsible father, He has disciplined me. Showed me how I strayed, and lead me back again.

Still, the way is rather dark and narrow, and I wonder how to walk it; why I should walk it. And, most ashamedly, if this is the way to walk.

But I suppose if you don't face up to questions, they can never be answered.

Sometimes when I pray I imagine hugging God and thanking Him for being God and Lord over all, and I wonder if I'm being irreverent to think of Him that way; but I think it warms all parents for their children to love them (and show it), so I think God probably doesn't mind, since He's not pompous that way anyway. Haha.