I had a horrid day today.

Made my brother wait for me to go out of the house together, but he missed his friend (who was waiting for him at the station). In the end I didn't have to take the train because my papa said he'll give me a lift to school.

So I walked him to the station. Said byebye at the control gates, and my little brother looked surprised I'm not going in with him. Yes. So I walked on... a little further..... And was seized by guilt. I was thinking, 'Ah fuck those petty cents, this is my little brother!" So I ran back and raced up the escalator in hope of accompanying him a while and wait for his train (yes and to atone for my making him miss his friend).

My stupid new slippers are so big in the front that I hit a step and FELL DOWN ON THE ESCALATOR?!?!?!?!?!?! My shin hit right smack onto the jagged-edge of the step?!?! OUCH man. Wah Lau. Luckily I was wearing rather thick Adidas pants (yay great quality)--so all I got was bruised-blue-black. But my brother just looked at me stupidly and said, "Huh? What are you doing here??".....

DOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Ok.

Number [2]! Was late for Tragedy class. Slightly late. I don't like to huff and puff and pant into class. Bleah. It was pretty boring because Prof. Patke was talking too fast today with too much material with no visual aid. Sigh.

[3] Got back my World Religion test. And I am very sad. :( Only got 56 out of 100. BARELY PASSED and I freaking studied for this test?!!?!? My heart just sank lah can. And. Ok I admit I didn't know what the hell is 'mikoshi' and I forgot the 'Eight Trigrams' and 'honji -something-' but but but Confucianism and morality is like HOW EASY???? 10 freaking marks??? GONE?????? Because I didn't have time to finish?!?!?!?!?! ........Sad.

[4] Got back my Tragedy test too. Ok in all honesty I'm ok with my grades for this test. I got pretty decent marks for whatever I wrote. BUT. I left TWO short-answer questions blank because I didn't read the text and therefore felt that I couldn't bullshit my way through.

Wrong??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Fuck man. This is seriously, in alllll honesty, feeling screwed. You CAN bullshit your way through. Blardddeeee hell. Feel so dui2 now. Bleah.

[note: dui = something like an extremely vexed and wanna shoot yourself in the foot kinda feeling.]

[5] After all these depressing things, Jirong decided to pangseh me for Deviance lecture. [note: pangseh = to stand someone up.] So I went for the lecture alone.

Never mind. The worse thing is, my project group was supposed to have a meeting? BUT. Three stupid members decided to PANGSEH AS WELL. FUCK?? Our project is DUE ON MONDAY AND ZILCH IS DONE?!?!?!?!? FUCK FUCK FUCK.????? It's really damn fucked up also for this stupid disgusting project group. Everyone is on bloody different wavelengths and discussion is always like Mars to Venus to Earth to PLUTO with loads of static in between. Crap.

[6] See HOW desperately DESPONDENT I absolutely feel now? I was ABSOLUTELY depressed. I felt so BLAH and so LAH and so BLEAH BLEH BLEAGH. I just wanted to skip dinner and zone out. Wanted to call someone but my phone died. Triple whammy. That's like, shit, man.

SO. This is the ULTIMATE thing that got me ready and raring to wham a baseball bat down someone's disgusting head. The ULTIMATE thing is a STUPID CHINA MAN.

I got on the bus to go back to my room.

It was bloody crowded. It's ok to push and squeeze and lah lah lah, as LONG AS it is done CIVILLY!!! [Yes I realize Civility and Bestial-Shoving-Pushing-Squeezing are oxymoronic.] So. This Huge China Man boarded after me.

Let me first acquaint you with this Stupid China Man. He is Fat ok. Period. Ok not FAT but he's just huge. You can't see anyone behind him or in front of him. i.e. He is probably twice my size both in breadth and in width. i.e. Two of me side-by-side and two of me back-to-back. And he was in an orange checkered shirt, extremely unkempt, sweaty, greasy, oily, balding, pudgy, portly, wobbly, pale, flabby, softie, AND ALTOGETHER Unattractive.

Yes. Now This huge MASS of thing boarded after me and stood beside me. EVERYONE FAT OR SKINNY was standing in a SINGLE FILE and this JOKER of a BUGGER, DECIDED, to SQUEEZE into the PUNY aisle-space BEHIND ME. I felt the breath knocked outta me suddenly when this JOKER STUPID BUGGER CHINA MAN cramped me and squashed almost into the lap of a passenger.

I caught my breath and was like, WTF?! And proceeded to squeeze back to gain my what little space I had. But it was like pushing against some mass of a wall man. He either didn't feel it, or just didn't bother to budge.

NEXT!!!!!! We got to the next stop and some passengers wanted to alight. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT LOUSY PIECE OF TOFU DID?!!??!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? HE stepped back, HE STEPPED BACK OKOKOK??? Might I remind you I WAS SQUASHED BEHIND HIM!?!?!? AND HE STEPPED BACK???

Suddenly my whole line of sight was blocked and everything was just, a.mass.of.orange.checkers. WAH LAU! HE WAS super sweaty ok, And super huge, I looked up at him to hopefully kill him with my glare but I couldn't stand the greasiness of his oily face. YUCKS YUCKS TRIPLE YUCKS.

HOW CAN HE JUST BOARD THE STUPID BUS, SQUEEZE BEHIND ME, TAKE UP SO MUCH SPACE, AND THEN PROCEED TO SMASH ME INTO OBLIVION!?!?!?!?!? LIKE HE CANNOT SEE ME LIKE THAT?????

I was SUPREMELY angry. ROYALLY furious. I was REALLY gonna give him a piece of my mind when he wobbled cumbersomely past me and plonked into a seat. Like, WTH. Crap! I think 'fuck' escaped my mouth and I had an extremely pissed look because I then sat next to a girl and she looked like she didn't want me to sit beside her.

[7] After all that trauma and emotional pantomine, Yes it was totally chaotic, I felt drained. So what happens after you get high and then get drained?

You get depressed and melancholic.

Most unwisely, I started to tear on the lousy bus. Crap.

Sigh.

[8] I alighted thinking that I can finally escape into the solace of my room, or maybe even pop into Q's room to sulk and maybe he can have the honour of watching me bawl while playing computer games.

But. Someone called my name thrice and I realized my new friends were there. Yes so I did some small talk, waited for their bus with them, one of them asked me how come I look so tired? Didn't feel like answering but he persisted so I said I'm not tired I'm just upset. Hahah. You don't do that normally with people you've barely met but, wth, I can't be really bothered then. Oh well.

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And thus ends my lousy horrid day. Actually I thought I rather liked today despite it being Tuesday-my-mad-day because everything was going so leisurely, slowly, and I rather relish the whole feeling of, going from class to class.

Sigh.

On a happier note.... now that I've purged all angry and sad emotions...

[1] I had breakfast with mommy, sister, and brother! :):) I miss my mommma's coffee--even though I'm trying to quit the stuff 'cuz someone told me it gives you CELLULITE!

[2] Met a cute guy! :D He seems pretty nice so far. Haha. Maybe I will have a new friend soon. Like, a friend-friend, not an acquaintance-friend.

[3] Q had dinner with me! And listened to me go on and on and on about Stupid China Man!!!!! HAhaha. And this is the most priceless quote of the day:

(takes out specs and wipes eyes with hands, laughing hysterically)
"I don't know how to deal with this man.......... This has absolutely NO logic..............!!!"

Haha. So funny. :D Yes. Then I went to his room to sulk some more and mope around and read his essay.

Hahhhhhhhh............................. .
Tired.