:: exhausted ::

lets see. it's 26th jan. i haven blogged for... 8days! (everyweek!) ok that's lame.

i'm exhausted to the max.
i'm maxed out by cny.

toooo tiring. geeeee or am i getting OLD OLD OLD? AHHHHHH.
my grandparents told me i'm 21 this year on the lunar calendar!!!!!!

nooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!

i'm 19! 19+++!!!!!

lost track of how much i've stuffed myself with. uGh but i'm sure it's all evident in the growing flab. OH how i cringe inwardly when my aunties and uncles and grandaunties and grandparents all compliment how slim my sister is. AHHHHHH i'm FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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jealous! ok! no serious i'm not jealous i juz... uGhzzz FAT FAT FAT. TAF for the FAT. hmm. o.O

on a happier note, my vocals have improved (apparently). hahahaah! it's become customary for me to join my uncle in belting out karaoke and this year we did our debut "one night in beijing". ahhahahaha! it was HILARIOUS. :D :D :D loads of fun! obviously i did the "shriek-high-gay" part whilst my uncle did his bass stuff. :P so funny! hee. next time if you're up to it i could do solo for u ah! :P

but i feel really happier this year. managed to get all the aunties and kiddos (yay!!!) to stay over, sleepover kinda thing and it was a blast. manz manz. :) felt that the sleepover really brought the cousins closer to my heart (they were ALREADY very close.. ahha) but it's like now at least there's a chance they may confide in me about whatever problems they may hav.. not undermining my elders, but sometimes i feel kids can empathize better? i'll feel in a better position to help them, pour some optimism into their lives...

hai. :) oh well that's what i really hope to do. to make them smile, laugh, with the pure joy of childhood. to see the smile reach their eyes. not to see them smile with unshed tears in their anguished eyes. really... observe the kids these days... especially the eldest. you'll be amazed at the sudden wrench in your heart.