:: i hate my dad sometimes ::

that's right. i totally loathe him sometimes. and he managed to piss me off again. i'm so totally, GOD i cant even think of a WORD to describe how i feel abt him now. it's like, CRAP man like SHIT like ASSHOLEY PIGHEADED SHIT.

1. going to malaysia in a few hours. dun even know when i'm coming back now, thankz to mr daddy.
2. i am so super free for the initial part of the holz and when xmas is near suddenly everyone wants a piece of me.
3. council having xmas party on 20th dec (which i promised to go), jayson having his xmas play on 19th and 20th, (which i promised to go on 19th but my DAD -thankz again- got LOTR tix 1930hrs show, so i postponed to 20th), and now i realized to my folly silly brain that i've just commited ONE piece of me to TWO different venues. SHIT.
4. i don't have any time alone anymore, which sucks cuz i'm losing touch with myself.
5. i dunno how the *beeP* i'm gonna resolve the *beep* issue abt dear ridz and this is SHIT too.
6. my dad.
7. my dad.
8. my DAD.
9. my dad.
10. my DAD.

cest la vie my Ass.

i feel like reverting to my irresponsible and self-centred self and cancel all appointments, cancel all social events, cancel all contact with the world, and retreat into meditation in my own world for a while. read: zilch sms, zilch computer, zilch talking, zilch icq, and zilch everything else. you get the drift.

i just feel so bloody *beeeeeep* anti-social now i dun wanna talk to anyone or think about anyone or feel for anyone or empathize with anyone or whathaveyou. in short PEOPLE and HUMAN BEINGS totally REPEL me, PUTS me OFF, TURNS ME OFF.

................ maybe i cannot stand people now, cuz i can't stand myself. ugh. whatever.