:: solitude ::

today, i felt very blue. i felt as though life had went out of me.

everybody needs some time... on their own...

but i feel like i want to be alone, all the time.

why do people feel like they want to be alone? or why do they feel they SHOULD be left alone?

the theory is, sometimes people reject love because they don't feel that they should be loved, can be loved, or is worthy and deserving of love. one of the reasons behind this notion is that they have not come to love themselves. the idea is that, you cant accept love for youself, when you don't love yourself. it's intrinsic and many people deny this when you question them.

i believe that hypothesis is true. so is there a similar explanation for why people feel they should be alone? perhaps they think that they Should be left alone because they simply don't bring good to anyone, they bring misery to everyone around them. if you delve deeper this means that they think extremely lowly of themselves.

but can that explanation be applied to why people WANT to be alone as well? people want to be alone sometimes because they Need to. it's a time to rejuvenate and get in touch with yourself. but people wanting to be alone ALL the time, maybe even for the rest of their lives, what's up with that? are they getting sick of human relationships? or is it just a passing hiatus for them to get back in touch with themselves? what if the feeling keeps coming back?

why would anyone feel this way?

i think people lose their delicate balance of Life when they lose touch with themselves.