:: snoopin ::

this is out of this world. haha. i AM the TRUE phD holder of snooping. grinz. shall not go into the details...haha. :P anyway.... think i might excel as a Private Detective manz. LOL.

but all that snoopin. got me thinking. i mean you read about people's lives, or what they choose to reveal to the world... like.. specifically, their love lives.

i cant help but wonder why i'm not more normal like the blogs i read. in those blogs, people fall in love, crazily and completely and romantically in love, and if they breakup they grief and in comes all the melodrama. and then they fall in love again. i'm talking about the EASE with which those characters move in and out of the Love Stage.

i don't seem to fall THAT crazily in love. i fall in love, thats about all i do. i dun fall INTO the bottomless abyss of all-consuming love. does that mean i'm not really in love with someone? strange. it's so funny, if you think about it. i experience all my emotions on almost an orgasmic level, meaning the Peak, the extreme. NOT the one where you're left panting and everything. haha. like.. when i get mad, i get really mad, i smash things, i scream, i go hysterical and i turn all violent and insane. if i am down, i'm really melancholic, a living zombie, lifeless, silent. if i'm happy, well, i'm over the moon, i even hyperventilate. lol.

so how come i dun fall head-over-heels-over-head-over-heels in love when i fall in love? although i still experience the extreme degree of grief when it's all coming to an end? am i not in love?

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why cant i just slip in and out of love with the ease some people manages so gracefully? and how the hell do they fall in and out of love so quickly, so many times?