:: jasmine lee ::

i just found out that my best friend in primary school has gone abroad to do events management. she is a phenomenal person, one of those people with loads of charisma. one of those people whom you meet and you feel instant magnetism, like an oomph! in the chest. one of those people whom you know will be a very great person in the future. (if all goes well...as in all things.. :) )

well...i'm always depressed when it comes to jasmine. after primary school, we just...left. off and on...i hear about her. through people. she's a famous personality, apparently. after pri school, she went on to join the band, became really active in council, went to calcutta and was featured in the newspaper and youth challenge newsletter, broke quite a few hearts, fell in love, and out of love.

we met up only so few times..once in sec1, when we were still bursting with loyalty for our pri alma mater, and went back to visit on teachers' day. and then again in j1, first three mths, during a chalet. hmm. that's twice. Ha. well our clique got together... but it was just different. things felt strained and distant, familiar and at home, all at the same time.

damn i feel really sad now..those were one of the friendships i cherished the MOST. and i let it all slip through my fingers...

how can someone so close to you suddenly be so distant? it's like the story of wallet and girls (well i'll post this up later..). except its not all that sudden. it's like waking up one morning and realizing something you treasure is gone. and yet, it's not all That gone. she's still around, available for contact, and yes i've still got her home number.

but i dont want to contact her.

why?

why do people not want to contact or revive lost relationships? i'm afraid to face the changes that has taken place, in both me and her. we will never be best buds again, and i can't face that. i've heard awful things about her, and i don't want those things to be proven right. i want to rem jasmine as my best buddy, the one who was there with me through the best years of my life so far, the one who cracked the silliest and dirtiest jokes i knew then, the one who stole my idea for an A-grade compo and didn't know it.

and now she's flown to another part of the world. i feel upset that i didn't know the news through her. and yet... why should i? if i were in her shoes, i wouldn't think of telling my pri school buds i'm going away to study.

would i?............

sigh. mayb it's true, what they say about friends. they come into your life for a purpose, to share a lesson, and then they're cued to take their leave.

..................do friendships actually exist on uncommon grounds?.... sigh.