HALLO....juz read ling's blog...

hmm...

:: [..this is dedicated to ling..if u ever see this..]

helloz dearie..

i'm really sorry i neglected you. i guess i did.
if i never read your blog..i would never know you stll cherish me so much.
i always felt that... you know..
yeapz i also felt that we drifted after JC..
i mean... sigh... i dunno... you were one o the BESTEST galfren i've had.

Those times in jc..it was REALLY great and totally...
i mean, it's juz great cuz i know no matter what happens,
like no matter how Fat i bloat, how much i vomit,
how i moan and groan and cry my eyes out,
how i bitch and screech and laugh like a hyena,
and stuff like that...

i know you'd ALWAYS ALWAYS be THERE FOR ME.
you're a blessing i count twice. hehe....

but... i dunno ling...maybe i juz have a prob with frenshipz...i cant seem to keep them. it depresses me sometimes.. but i figured maybe i juz havta move on? i mean.. this "prob" was one of the constant cause of quarrels btwn me n renzi last yr... sigh... i dunno... seems maybe it's a curse you know ling...

i mean... it's really really... uplifting i guess... to see all my closest frenz eventually finding someone they're always meeting up with, always catching up with... doing stuff together and everything...i mean.. it's really touching and i'm really really... from the bottom of my heart i really admire these people. Like... like for eg you.. you hav mar n sm.. whh is really great. i'm really happy for you guyz. and pple like aaron also. chuin and gang also. etc lahz. hehe..

so i fig... maybe the one with the prob is ME. so... really dear... its not you. =)

sigh... but... it's a prob i haven quite figure out. so...you know..
when you aint find no prob, you aint gonna find no solution.
hahahaha.. *grinz*

so i dunno manz my dearest girl....

but i juz want you to know..if we ever ever EVER come to point where things mellow so much, to the extent that, we're awkward w each other..we cant even hold a decent conversation...there're constant lapses of uncomfortable silences... please know that it's probably not your fault. Really. Chances are.. it's prob my fault.

And please know that... i'm glad, at least, our paths crossed Once. That Once, was intimate, close, fun, exhilarating, and totally a Blast! =)

*hugz lotz* to borrow that super cliche slogan from solviet titus (or sth)...
"bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, zhi zai hu chen jing yong you"

GRINZZ...now we're Lesbian partners girl! hahaha... =P

k la... lighten up abit... things are not THAT bad.. hehe.. soooo....
Make some time for me on ur Very Busy Schedule la k! *gRinzzzz*